Oy Vey

Great more drama to make life just peachy...I really don't need this right now, but I know that I will hear it through til the end. I don't care how much it will hurt me, I'll be there through it all. GA! >.< DJAO;IRJDIOFJAKDJFOEKWUIO;NGDFANFJKEIOAJGTIEOAHJ nice way of putting swear words that I really want to say XD lmao...
Dang snow needs to go away!! I'm so tired of it! I want spring and rain to be here!!!! I'm ready for it!!! Not more of this white carpoolie!!! I am ready for the sun to come out and play and not just through clouds...I want it to warm up and be spring!!!
The next movie I want to see in theaters is Red Riding Hood! It looks so amazing!!! Saturday night, I believe it was, I went with Ashley and Hannah to go see Sucker Punch! IT'S AN AMAZING MOVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really enjoyed it!!! I like it a lot better than some of the other psychological films that I have seen and miserably failed to impress me...This movie though...WOW!!! It out did it's own self!!!! I LOVE IT!!! I'm excited to see Ashley cos playing that girl with the pigtails...I can't really remember her name, sorry. 
Ok so how the fudge do you think your cool if you sing the stupidest song ever!!!!! XD sorry ranting on like a nut XD hahahahahahaha really though am getting annoyed with that dang song!!!

So the movie that we are watching in creative writing is actually a heck lot better than I thought it would be!! I watched a few commercials for the movie, but I thought that it was going to be really stupid. so I wasn't planning on watching it...but now that we are watching it; I'm really glad that we chose that movie!!! And it's really annoying that I can't remember the name of it for anything!!! XD It's really frustrating me because it's an amazing movie and I really am enjoying it. Ashley said it's a great movie and after watching it now I can really see how great it is!!! AH!!! I just remembered the name!! It's Kind of a Funny Story! This movie is epic!!!! I really really like it!!! When it comes out or if it's already out i'm going to ask if we can buy it, and I'm going to watch it with my mom XD She would really enjoy this movie as well and I want to watch it again :D
My favorite character in this movie would have to be Noelle who is played by Emma Roberts!! I am really getting a liking for this actress XD I know that might sound wrong but whatever! I think she is great and pretty. Sadly, I really hope that she doesn't become corrupt like a lot of other actors and actresses or even singers... >.< really annoying how they are all becoming corrupt with the fame and fortune!!!
Like for instance Miley Cirus....the teen who has thousands of little girls who think she is amazing and want to do everything like her; all of a sudden she does pole dancing and wears skimpy outfits DX dear god!!!! GET A CLUE PEOPLE!!!! We already have a corrupt society enough! We don't need it ruing any worse!!!
Also like Brittany Spears when she first started all innocent and good but then totally became corrupted and now I hate to listen to her...I used to love her music but then she went to all skimpy ass clothes and then I hated her... I know that isn't right but it's how I feel about her turning into the person she is today. It's freaking ridiculous!!!!!
Sorry I am just really frustrated with how our world is turning in today XD ok so I think I am done blogging and crabbing for now. Another insane day to go through! YAY!!!

No Idea

Wow...it's been a really long time since I've blogged but that's because I'm actually trying to get a real life out in the real world now. I've been hanging out with my great friend and I'm really glad that she is a friend of mine. Without her life would be in the shits for me >.>' It has just gotten so frustrating and stressful but with her I can forget it all for a long time! It's great to know though that I have such a wonderful friend! I love her very much <3 I
Yeah we both have our problems but we each try to be there for the other and that just makes it even easier to bear things with.

“We are friends and I do like to pass the day with you in serious and inconsequential chatter. I wouldn't mind washing up beside you, dusting beside you, reading the back half of the paper while you read the front. We are friends and I would miss you, do miss you and think of you very often.”

Jeanette Winterson

I like this quote...I just randomly found it but it's really cool so i'm now going to go on a quote spree XD lmao

A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.
Oscar Wilde

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.
Edgar Allan Poe

Any idiot can face a crisis - it's day to day living that wears you out.
Anton Chekhov

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
Buddha

All good music resembles something. Good music stirs by its mysterious resemblance to the objects and feelings which motivated it.
Jean Cocteau

All music is beautiful.
Billy Strayhorn

 

For me, singing sad songs often has a way of healing a situation. It gets the hurt out in the open into the light, out of the darkness.
Reba McEntire

 

A good head and a good heart are always a formidable combination.
Nelson Mandela

Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

ok so there are more quotes but I won't put them on otherwise this would be a too big of a blog post XD this is good for now though i like it...i'm done now

I waited but you never came.

I stood there in the rain, waiting for you in the cold night.

My tears streaming down my face.

You could not see them because of the rain.

My body soaked but you were still not there.

I waited and waited all through the night but you never came.

My heart broke that night, when you never came.

The worst feeling isn’t death….It’s knowing that you aren’t needed…That you are alone in this world and that you no longer have a reason to live…

I found these last night when I was searching through my computer for pictures of my grandma and of anything else. I was really excited when I found them so I thought that I would just post them.

Well there has ben a lot of drama going on at my house which is really starting to wear my family thin, first there is the bull crap dealing with my grandma in Grand Island. We can't call her, can't see her, can't write a letter to her; we can't do anything with her!!! I am so sad because I miss my great grandma so much because she has been a huge part of my life and all of a sudden I can't talk to her at all recently.

Then I had a friend who was almost always coming over and we literally treated her like one of the family well guess what?! that just blew up in my face recently because she was trying to start a effing rumor that my brother's gf is pregnant and she isn't even close ya idiot!!!! So we refuse to have her over again or do anything nice with her. We even last year during summer, we went to Valentine, NE for vacation and we had taken her along...and this is the repayment we get for being always so nice to her.....screw that crap!!!! I will not stand for that with my family. I already have enough to worry about without her help. so now she is officially scratched out totally!! >.< sorry about that but I am really not happy with what she did.

Then I have a guy who really wants to go out with me and is literally begging me on faceboook and I don't even know who he is!!! I told him know and he just won't take no for an answer. I've already been hurt one too many times by guys who promise to do that one thing, Never hurt you. but then they turn around and stab you in the back which is just as bad with the situation above! It's like a double back stab and it hurts -_- I am so frustrated.

But i did go to Winter  Royalty with Ashley, Danielle, and Jared (no idea why he came but still fun). It was so much fun!! I had originally planned to go bowling with the same people and others but then the others bailed out on us. So then I went over there dressed up because I thought I had to and well then we decided to go to the dance! It was fun and I got to surprise a lot of my friends by randomly showing up because they didn't expect me to go so it was awesome!! Then we spent the night at Danielle's house and we played a game that was called Boys Are Stupid or something where if we got 5 rocks we could supposedly throw them at boys but we didn't get too but it was still alot of fun to play it! It was a lot of fun at her house :D I hope that I can have another sleep over with them again ^^ XD lol. well there isn't much more to talk about so I think i'm done blogging for now. last week was boring so maybe this week will be different...Another insane day in an already insane world!!!!! Yay XD

Not Much to Say

Surprisingly it has been difficult the last few days to decide what i should blog about so i stay ahead or keep up or how ever it goes XD I was looking at some things last night and realized that i have changed so much that it's really scary. i also found a poem that i had written without going out with this guy whom i had really liked and yeah >.> I don't think I should post it because one paragraph possibly could be a little inappropriate but i really do want to post it just to see what others think of it....i don't think i will though til someone looks at it and says it's ok to put up XD
I got to babysit my bird's babies yesterday and it was amazing!!!! i really love having them come over and it sounds like they are coming over again next week for possibly 2 days :D yay!!!! Party time for me with them XD they'll be bigger then normally.

after the babies went home I went over to Ashley's and played a game with her, Danielle *not sure on spelling* it was so much fun!!!!!!!! i really enjoyed playing with everyone who was there even if i don't fully understand all of it yet! XD i don't care! i still had a heck of a time and it was a great stress reliever so that helped as well but mostly it was just nice  to be with some people who i might soon consider friends. 2 i already do and the others i'm getting to know better so yay XD lol and my wrists really hurt now so i think i'm going to stop typing >.< so smart of me hahahahahaha

Another Bad Day......

*sigh* This week is turning out to be a really really bad week...first the drama on monday and now this crap...My mom and bro were fighting over what he could put on his class ring because he wanted to put Dean, Dawn, Devin, Lynn and my mom only saw that he wanted Dawn and Lynn then she freaked out....and the hell starts raining over our house...so finally after their fighting he decided to put something completely different. Some German phrase which is much better because it is more like my brother...so finally now my mom is fussing over it but in a really bad mood which she shoved onto me and has totally got me backwards...so now i am.......i have no idea.....i just know that i am really hurt and stuck......sorry to complain i'm done now.....

Bad Monday

Wow...I think this is the worst Monday that I have had ever so far just this new year....apparently I am being talked about behind me back >.< really do not like that!! If you have a problem with me...then come to my face and don't complain to other people who have their own problems to worry about!!! Sorry am really frustrated with the recent news that I just got *.* It is really testy becasue it's so screwed up!! Just because I am concerned with someone and I talk to another person to try and figure out what to do doesn't make me a bad person.....well at least I don't think it does. I also know that the person I talked too really cares for this same person but has a lot more wisdom than I do so that's why I went to them. I don't know all of it, what i really know is that I am now being scorned by that person for being concerned and am having love troubles XD ha ha ha ha ha ha oh well just another day isn't it...ugh drama........................ &_&
Well at least I got my picture story done!!! XD I am happy that I got that all done and over with...now that it is all written out I can really see why I wrote it the way i did... >.> don't ask hee hee it is not a good ending for my characters basically. This day has gone from mostly good to down right crappy!!! I really need a friend to come over and hang out with me >.< but also who i want to talk too is about a gazillion miles away so...i really miss talking to them...I might try and call them tonight just to see if I can't get a hold of them :D that would help make the day better and also good news too....I am beginning to wonder why I even bother to help people out when it just comes back and bites me in the butt in less than a few days......maybe I should really stop and just retreat for quite a while...
Please don't say anything like it will get better >.< I know it will but I am just having a frustrating day and feel like ranting...mostly to get things off my chest :/