Shattering poem... :/

My life is shattering before my eyes.

I take a step down the path to move on,

And it is like glass breaks from above

To only fall down…stopping me from taking

That path…with pain coursing through

My veins and my body covered in gashes

All over…they cover everything…the

Pain is almost too much I cannot bear…

It much longer and still be me.

It is like listening to my heart shatter

During a regular school day…it

Continues to shatter everyday…

The pain is getting to me and I cannot

Hide the fact that it hurts much longer…

I am lost, hurt, and confused…so where

Does that leave me then?

I don't know I just had a random thought after getting made fun of by a kid that treats me like a sister....it really hurt what she said is all i know but i can't remember what she is even said which is pretty said >.> *sigh* i just know that i had to get feelings out and i've been wanting to post some more poems on this site so then i won't lose them or totally forget them...BUT ON THE OTHER HAND!!!!!!! I AM SO EXCITED FOR TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ashley is coming over <3 and we are goign to discuss murderers, possibly watch movies, eat ice cream and just have fun!!!!! i am really excited for that i know for sure!!! I hope that she can stay the night!! That would be even more amazing!!!!!!!

Mortal Instruments

Ok for the past few weeks I have been reading the Mortal Instruments series and I finished the last book today during SSR....I DIDN'T WANT TO FINISH IT!!!!! :( I just looked at the book dumbfounded that I had already finished it...I haven't read a series like this one that drove me absolutely nuts!! I seriously just sat there staring at the last page thinking, 'It's over...NO IT CAN'T BE ALREADY!!!!!' My friends looked at me really weird when i grabbed my bookbag and shoved the book in it >.< I explained that I finished the book when I did't want too and they laughed which was fine by me. I really enjoyed reading them though!!!!! Absolutely an amazing series...gah!!!! I'm still sad that i finished them...might go buy the series since it was so amazing!!!!!! So if you get the chance and like to read, you should read this series!!!! It might be just my opinion but I really really really loved reading them!!! The twists and turns have you hopping through the books >.> well that was how it was for me at least XD hahahahahahaha...well...really nothing much more to blog about so i think i'm just going to finish my biography thingy....need to take out some memories....oh well. later ;p

Memories

Wow I was talking to my mom last night looking for some funny stories to put in my biography and I learned that apparently I called a bat a bee... XD That was really funny to hear about actually!!! I don't know I just randomly had words popping into my head and that's what they created for me...hope it's good.

Memories come and go.
They are quick or long.
They can be subtle.
Some are buried deep
in our mind.
While others are right
at the surface.
Some are locked up
and are ment not to be
looked at.
Some are to be shared
and to enjoy by others.
Memories are there...no
matter if we want them
to be or not.
They are always there...
no matter how far we
bury them under the surface.


Okay then...Now I feel completely random by that but then again that is just apart of another insane day!!! Holy crap, hee hee, I actually yelled at someone today during lunch because that person had called some of my friends queers with a teacher nearby. He is hardly ever taught a lesson or anything and that was the last straw of what to say to my friends when I am there...So I yelled at him for it and didn't get in trouble which is even better!!! But really I don't like it when a person does that at least to my friends...Eh...might be a little weird but oh well XD It is apart of who I am....I thought about blogging last night about a whole bunch of things that I learned last night that I apparently did when I was a lot younger...I called a crab apple tree; a crap apple tree >.> Mom laughed until she cried when she told me about that...I felt really silly then but I didn't mind....There's really not much to blog about today so I think I'm done blabbing my mouth ;P

Randomness ;P

Wow!! We got a lot of snow last night XD ha ha ha, Big fluffy flakes almost all night...It was very beautiful to watch! I miss my friends...I really wanted to see them last night but the dance was only postponed which means I can do it another time this week!! It was weird because yesterday I went out to deliver my papers and my car was literally sliding everywhere I went! I hardly could make it on my route but it was still really fun but cold also.  
Holy cow they are showing an ASPCA commercial and I am wanting to cry because I love animals very much and I hate how people can just abandon or abuse their pet!!!!!!! It's not right and to me very wrong! I wish that more people would help animals out instead of hurting them more...Someday I would really love to help animals!! That would be amazing if I could help them out one day...oh well that is in the future to come.....nothing really to talk about so I think i'm done blabbing my mind

Pep Rally

Well, I normally don't get into the pep rally's at any of the schools that I have been in, but today's was very hilarious!! My favorite part of it would be the part where the teachers are dancing! That will be alot of fun to give teachers some crap on it later but I will be nice because I thought it was really cool. A few of my friends went down to do the rock-paper-scissors competition thing but none of them made it to the finals. Oh well, they had a lot of fun doing it so that's all that matters. I am now going to have to add that to one of my funniest viewed videos on youtube! hee hee, Also I am going to show it to some people that I know will get a kick out of it and think awesome...or maybe not...I don't know for sure yet. there's the link if you want to watch it if you can't find it.

I am looking outside and am getting very tired of looking at snow constantly outside...I am really tired of it even though I did the poem on it. It just gets old too me fast...Just me though ^_^

Snow

So apparently it is snowing again...yipee :/ we don't need anymore snow!!! ha ha ha, I even am tempted to randomly write something again about it ;P no way jose XD I want to be where it is nice and warm! My friend who is Oklahoma called me the other day and was bragging about how he was outside! It was about 78 degrees there so i told him, 'I hate you,' not really meaning it. Oh well...this is nebraska for you sadly XP
Ok, so my dogs love to go for rides with any of us and mom went out last night to get my brother and his friends. She called the dogs along and apparently Trina jumped off the bottom of our steps out front and fell down instantly. She didn't know that there was ice there and just went down hard on the sidewalk. She is ok, but it is actually very funny because that dog can run very fast when we go to the dog park or anywhere with a big area. She will run extremely fast and not even once lose her balance. Trina trys to stop by our other dog, Rosie, when she is running really fast and mostly manages to run into her. It is quite comical and always fun to watch.
Well there is nothing else really to blog about so i think i'm going to go and do something else now. ;p later

Scooby Doo!! XD

Well my mom came home just a while ago and has a new sweat shirt on again...I have no idea why she is wearing a red one when her favorite color is orange but still looks great. I noticed though that when she got home she had embroidered scooby doo on it again!!! ha ha ha, this is the 3rd sweat shirt of her's that she has embroidered only scooby on it. Lol, if you don't know my mom loves scooby doo very much! The van even has scooby doo on it and the windows as well XD hee hee. But that is my mom for ya with scooby doo...she has started embroidering with a brother sewing machine and absolutely loves it! Me...i think i'm going to break the thing because i don't do well with sewing thingys XD but any way she really loves it and is having a great blast with it. A sweat shirt that she is going to embroider for me sometime is one with fishing on it for when we can go fishing again in the spring and summer!
Sitting here thinking randomly i just realized that i fell 3x today and bruised on all 3 spots of the fall...OUCH!!! lol, both of my knees are bruised again like my last fall that i had still this year and then i fell on my hip which really hurt XD i've never fallen on it before . Most of the time i just either fall backwards or straight to my knees...i'm surprised that they are able to still move so easily! ha ha ha, so yeah i new have 4 bruises which is the least number that i've ever had...
hm...I wonder what the weather will do tonight...we were only supposed to get flurries today i found out and then i saw that it was snowing pretty good for a very long time. o.O i just realized that i've have now changed the subject of my topic about 3x now XD wow...maybe my lucky number should become 3! Since today i've done a lot of things in threes without even realizing it. I'm not sure...I might just figure this all out tomorrow because i am tired right now honestly...actually i'm surprised that i'm even still up!!! I am exhausted from all the running around after school that i had to do......eh can't complain here ha ha ha ha ha, well before i start to bore people to death i think i'm going to stop blogging now XD well laters ;P